I need other people because…

This is a very hard topic to answer because i simply don’t care. It is easy to not care most of the time because most of the adults in my family either don’t know, ignore the signs, or allow themselves to enable my worst problems to avoid problems. I ignore most external sources, even my fav actors.

I’ve been spoiled for choice (not monetary) on most things in my life. Since my choices are watch tv, sleep, eat, and other bare essentials, it’s not much of a life. Since i have lost a sense of self, or deconstructed it that far, i lost most motivations for anything else. The most i know about myself is that i have an ISTP personality.

The significant needs were ususally ‘handled’, and if i have to participate i feel very detached about the event. I constantly need reminders and i’m terrible at contingency plans on my priorities.

I need people to help me with personal growth on my strength and weaknesses, so that i can make the right decisions and find the strength to take action. In fact, i need to start from scratch. Logically i am depressed about all this because i fear i am not up to the task. I am old enough to understand, but i dont care. There is no trust because i dont want to look for it. I have more trust in fictional characters because they don’t give me grief.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Cats or dogs – which do you prefer?

I prefer cats. I’ve had the chance to experience both, but i have a closer relationship with cats by the numbers. However, i know the general breed of dogs i encountered, and have been watching Dog Whisperer for a couple years.

Cats – 6, Dogs – 4

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Red Dwarf HQ Channel


Robert Llewellyn @bobbyllew aka Kryten

other sites:
http://www.reddwarf.co.uk/news/index.cfm
http://uktv.co.uk/dave/series/tvseries/1427
http://www.fanfiction.net/tv/Red_Dwarf/
http://reddwarfslash.livejournal.com/

What old shows do you wish were still on TV?

The shows i don’t have on DVD:

Ghostwriter – found a link for all the Youtube!
Bill Nye the Science Guy – only found the songs on Youtube
Are You Being Served? – disappeared from PBS?
Magic School Bus on the weekend?
Art Attack – TVO channel – i wish it would rerun on a channel i can get
Roswell – have the books

Some shows have returned (cable is my friend!)

new Red Dwarf – don’t know if they will rerun on PBS like they did before
reruns of Dr Quinn, X Files, Judging Amy
sometimes Firefly is on the Science Channel
Survivorman is filming – Les Stroud is surviving for 10 days this time

Where do you find creative inspiration?

i get the best inspiration from memes, topic ideas, fanfiction, and TV.

Ooh and fav actors XD



since my livestreams provided me with nothing – such is the Great YouTube!

edit: they cut out his last line, it was so sweet. Here is the Daily Motion for the full version

Close your eyes and write about what immediately pops into your head: Sadness

The current actor i am living vicariously through because i wish to escape reality.

Recently the length of Fangirling time has shortened with each new actor because i have the guilts for not being more useful in my life. I don’t know how long this one is going to last, but there will probably be someone new in six months; no matter how loyal i am or if they have new eps and interviews.

Then i think about writing a story with the character(s) they play. I haven’t written any fanfics since 1998+ and X Files. i have a few prompts, but i haven’t got the time to flesh them out or find a regular writer to adopt the plot bunny. however if i got an ff.net account…

then i think about watching tv again to forget the crazy i have inadvertently given myself. or read the books that i have horded since whenever.

then i think about school and how it will end someday and ….. where’s my future and how will i pay for it?

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Write a review of the last movie you saw.

Cowboys and Aliens 2011: scifi/thriller
Aliens were fantastic!
The story was fantastic!
Harrison Ford still great
Daniel Craig heard he was James Bond
Olivia Wilde’s eyes made her look like Keira Knightly sometimes

Fright Night 2011: horror/comedy
David Tennant: the main reason i went to see the movie in theaters, didn’t disappoint, even if i had to wait. Very HOT!!!!!
Anton Yelchin: saw him in The House of D. great acting here!
Colin Farrell’s acting was ok but i never saw him in anything before so he didn’t interest me even as the main vampire.
Vampires here were scarier, if i were to get scared by such things.

Avatar 2009: /action/adventure/fantasy – i would add scifi
Aliens were blue!
i liked it initially in theaters, but when it came on cable tv i got hooked. This was mostly because of the romance and Sam Worthington

How to kick a bad habit part *

Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong. (Murphy’s Law)

Twitter has become a bad habit.
just another part of my internet/tv addiction

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What’s the worst thing that’s ever happened to you as a result of procrastinating?

The procrastination-rewards
Truth about procrastination

My last semester homework was not finished on time.
This homework was almost done when the worst case of procrastination/depression came over me.*

The assignment: a take home essay final in literature class (Victorian and Modern era)
grade: F

medium of control: TV, twitter, other
revised course of action is needed

Do you support this bill? I Don’t.

11.16.11, Congress holds hearings on the first American Internet censorship system. If it passes, the Internet and free speech will never be the same. [american censorship]

On Wednesday Jan. 18th thousands of sites will go dark to protest SOPA & PIPA, two US bills racing through Congress that threaten prosperity, online security, and freedom of expression.

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